Reputation Degradation

"Broke bitches so crusty, disgust me.."

As I type this, I sit here in utter embarrassment. Tonight, I have been reminded why I don't typically associate with people younger than myself.

First, I wanna set the record straight. I don't post this for just for you to read. You know how their are different coping mechanisms for different people such as drinking, self-harming, etc.? Well this is how I cope with the craziness of my life while also having a written recount of things I may forget. The most important thing to remember is that this is REAL SHIT!! I live this shit! It's maaaad levels to this shit! I get really sensitive when people even mention my blog to other people besides me. There are many comical aspects such as the nicknames that I choose, but I don't mean for my blog to become something you read to get a good laugh. I want you to connect and empathize with the happenings and emotions portrayed in this blog. I want you to read and think "Damn, that's happening to me." or "I've been through that and it sucks". Moreover, if you happen to read something about yourself on this blog and you have a question, you should probably ask the person who wrote it (ME!). Please, I would gladly clarify anything written rather than have to find out that you think I hate you or worse, that you think I want to date you. Ehh!

And If you see something that speaks to you, COMMENT THAT SHIT! Message me. You never know. You could easily help me me understand something or even provoke thoughts for a later post.
(Had to get that out of my system)

Anyway, Tonight, my gut feeling told me to stay my ass at home. But I didn't listen. Next thing I know, I'm with my bestfriend, Brownboy, and dumb and dumber. I briefly mentioned brownboy a few posts ago. I only planned to hang out with Ralph and Brownboy and we were going to the beach, but the next thing I know, brownboy is telling these people that I'm coming to get them! I was confused because I thought we were going to chill at the boy's house but nope. The Greek God invited me to a getty, but used the word "party" it didn't matter to me, but I should've known better than to bring 16-year-olds who are non-Justin to a college party. Well, I didn't realize how old they were till we were pretty much there.
*goes to sleep and wakes up the next morning*
Maaaan. I don't feel like going over the minute details, but the next thing I know, I find myself getting aggravated by everybody except Rafael. We went to another party across the apartment complex and those three wanted to stay because...of things that were there. Ralph and I went back to chill with The Greek God,Bob the Builder and whoever else. They were mad cool. In fact, I've never been around friends of Josh's that I really didn't like. But, that might be my natural need to be around people older than myself. So as I'm chilling, three other people hit me up asking me what I'm up to and if I wanna chill. Ironic! Where was your ass like 4 hours ago? Ugh!

Bob the Builder is not someone I've ever been romantically interested in but I'm going to call him that because of things I'm about to say. So, Bob the Builder was a tad bit...gone lol. I've never seen him that talkative or amicable before. Don't get me wrong, he is really friendly and a dope ass nigga. He was talking to the three stooges when they came back from the other party. There was joke going about how he was trying to get at them like that but I don't think so. But Brownboy took it that way and then had some things to say in the car ride back about how uncomfortable he was. Could've fooled me but whatever.

Now you're wondering what I'm so upset about. Chill tf out let me get there!
I didn't like how Brownboy just included his friends in our plans without asking me if its okay first. I don't mind people that smoke, but if that's all your about then that's crazy. Dumb and Dumber were only 16 that's the crazy part. It was mad rude of the three stooges to just bust up in the place asking for liquor. They made me feel very uncomfortable and I also found myself feeling like a babysitter. MOST of all, it was my first time meeting many of those people, so now I feel like they have based their first impression of my off of people that I usually never even associate with. And Josh's texts after the fact made me feel like complete shit. I felt horrible. He probably won't even want to invite me to something that he isn't hosting anymore. Putting it into those terms makes me.....angry. I'm starting to feel like a dungeon dragon.

I'm the King and I officially declare that the three of us are done with this topic. MOVE ON OR BE GONE!

Listen. I swear if this Mr. PotatoHead lookin ass nigga say ONE MORE THING to me at work, I'm turning his ass into french fries.

It was really nice catching up with Diane the other day, makes me think that no matter how many days we go without contact, we still are there for each other. hmmph.

*waits for someone to ask me to go to the beach this week*