Tuesday, July 23, 2013

He Don't Know Me But He Settin Up To Blow Me,UNH!

First things first, I have gotten into the habit of titling my blog posts with a line from a song. This one comes from Nicki Minaj's verse in "Love More" by Chris brown, and can be heard here http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KPzn7kwrHJc

BTW those random pictures that you see are GIFS (which means they move). I use them to express emotion. I don't think they move if you are reading this on mobile

I REAAALLY appreciate the comments that are sometimes left on my blog. Please continue to do that. You can choose to be anonymous or leave your name. Either does not affect me. Your thoughts influence mine. I really wanna hear your thoughts on what's going on in my life.

Feel free to ask me questions at ask.fm/TreyZolanski as well :)

Okay I also wanna say that my life typically does not revolve around my love interests. However, I think it has contributed to my evolution as an individual this summer, hence why my blog posts revolve around it...for now.

This morning I had an unusually extensive conversation with JC the Greek God. He is very intellectual and while Charlie or Brooklyn usually talk to people, I, the Forever Dreamer, was able to converse naturally with him and didn't feel it necessary to "dumb" myself down. He mentioned AJ and I thought it was interesting how he told me EXACTLY what Chino, Julisa, Myra, and other people had told me about him. I'm happy that I was able to end it before anything really started. I'm not trying to take care of you or be your sugar daddy. Interestingly enough, AJ never tried any of that with me anyway. Oh well, I no longer talk to Adrian. Be with Ryan. Shit, I wouldn't mind somebody taking care of me lmfaoo. In a way, the only foolish thing about it is expecting everyone else to do the same for you.

And after talking to Josh, I realized that I am socially powerful. I know how to talk to people to get them to tell me what I want to know, I know how to become acquainted with people, and I know how to make people know only what I want them to know. And I'm good at reading people and realizing their intentions. Go me.


*takes deep breath* Let me update you on Chino. 2 nights ago, we were on the phone. Then we started talking about things I had mentioned on the blog about him (going to dinner with him, feelings attached, blase blase). He told me that at one point of time, before the blowup, he felt something for me. I was utterly shocked. I usually always get when someone has feelings for me, but not this time. And I think that knowledge of whatever he felt for me, would definitely have altered the way in which our friendship progressed. So after he told me all this, I felt the need to tell how I felt. Allow me to share the essence of what I told him, to you. I like Justin. Simple. Despite knowing his past, I like him. What has always stopped me from seeing that is thought that I wasn't good enough for him. I don't look like AJ, or Kevin...or his new guy Robbie. I guess while I might not be the most attractive guy, I have my personality (saying that makes me feel a hell of alot uglier lol) and my future. And my intelligence and extreme uniqueness. So after I told him all this and then some, I asked him to do me one favor.

I told him, " Tell me you don't have feelings for me anymore. If it's true, I want you to tell me"
I don't know what I expected him to say...but this is what he said:

"Trey...I don't have feelings for you"


It's not often that I put myself in the way of rejection, but dude, I was standing on I-75 and Rejection was a bus full of foreign tourists that hit me hard. Hard. I said the corniest thing after that which I won't mention, but I really didn't want Chino to know how much it affected me. I started to crave KFC chicken.  He was really upset about it as well, and couldn't continue to talk OTP after that...Now he's on his way to Legoland to see Robbie. I hate Legos.

Have you ever experience rejection? I wanna know your story..

Once you read this next part, you will be utterly confused. Just a warning.

Okay, so  I don't know if i mentioned this in my last post, but the last time I went to see AJ, some guy was at their house. He seemed kind of feminine to me, but the Roomate told me he was straight and just like to hang out with gay people. hmmph. Well that guy, I'll call him Comcast. He hit me up when I was in drive-thru at work and all that I'm about to tell you occurred right before I had that conversation with Chino that I just spoke about (try to keep up). He told me he wanted to chill because I seemed like a cool dude. I had nothing to do so I agreed. I went to get him and we went to walmart and wendy's. I kept noticing the small things he would do, like touch my arm gingerly and occasionally bump into me. I was so confused haha. I was talked, I really noticed his spontaneity. He also kept flattering me lol. He knew who the fuck he was sitting next to. We got to the park and I just asked him, what's your sexuality. He told me he didn't like to be labeled as anything (so really bisexual). I was cool with that. Before I knew it, we were holding hands.Then kissing. Before I dropped him off, he gave me his bracelet and told me if I was down for him, he was down for me. Ever since then, has been wanting to spend time with me and always lets me know that he thinks about me. And talks to me regularly. AND HE NEVER EVEN TRIED ANYTHING WITH ME SEXUALLY. YES! YES! YES!


Now you're asking, "Well, why are you worrying about Justin if you have this great ass guy?" WELL the answer to that is simple: Idk. Justin has been in my life longer and I really need this to be settled. But that won't stop me from being with Comcast. Nope. I guess there's hope for me after all :) This guy is playing his cards right.



Randomly thought about Alaizsha. Hmm.

Today I killed a snake in my lanai. I swear I felt like Hercules after. Tssss.


Just wanna thank Myra Porto for always being there for me. Love you. 

4 comments:

  1. Sometimes I wish you could feel like you can come to me for advice but I guess we're not as close as I thought we were beginning to be.

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  2. Its funny how u judge someone by a single catalyst who unleashing rumors about AJ hes a sweet guy. Justin is the mess. None of these ppl knew AJ not even Jaysee. I'm telling AJ

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  3. Comcast sounds like a great guy give him a chance! A fair one ! I know you still have these feelings for justin but don't let that get in the way of something that could be good. My sister is good friends with Justin I know a lot about him. Trust me he did you a favor ! At the end of the day it was his lost cause your fucking awesome! ! ;)

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  4. Comcast speaking :3 lmfao. people give this dude a round of applause (:

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