Sober in Hate

"He's all alone, some things will never change 

The lonely loner seems to free his mind at night "

Originally, this blog was in response to situation I faced before I left USF for break in which someone went into my room and took my personal belongings without my permission. You can imagine what that was like. Everyone felt awkward the next day, but I don't really give a fuck. Please don't ever leap up in my face  and try to put on some big and bad make-believe costume on because babygirl Trey is the motherfuckin big bad wolf and I will surely huff and puff and blow your house down. Anyway, I've been working on this because I didn't wanna dedicate my blog to one issue that I no longer care about. But the last thing I'll say is that I made sure to make a big deal out of it as an example to everyone else.

Loyalty is Royalty, and you bitch? You belong with the peasants.

Sometimes people characterize me as mean and heartless, and I feel that's true but only when I 'm given incentive to be that way. Other than that, I consider myself more nice than I absolutely have to be. For example, two weeks ago, The pod ordered pizza. I put in the order ( first I asked if anyone wanted to join in because I was ordering for myself.).I was nice enough to pay the tax and the delivery fee. But guess what? Someone took advantage of that and didn't put in ANYTHING for what they had individually ordered. I was collecting the money on the table and honestly have no clue who DIDN'T coontribute due to my own lack of paying attention (not that I thought I actually had to). So basically I paid $10 more than I had to, and that's all the way fucked up. However, $10 to me, isn't something to argue about, and so I never said anything. I don't always like confrontation and plus USF already thinks I'm more ratchet than I actually am and paints me as some violent egomaniac. Now if I knew who it was, that'd be different. But I've learned my lesson, and won't be volunteering to do that ever again lol.

I spent my last few days with Mollie. I absolutely love her. She is probably the most genuine person in pod. She got me when I need her and I most deff got her. I love that little pothead.

In other news, Ja'Markus and I had a good ass conversation and cleared everything up. While he will never be someone that I really rely on or trust to a great extent, we always have alot of fun when hangs out with us and we all turn up. Kinda sad that he's leaving but hey, life goes on.

He mentioned something about the Pod being mad floppy. I agree. They are too fake sometimes. But as long as it isn't directed toward me. I'm good. I learned from the whole Curtis thing ( One of my podmate's boyfriend was making everyone uncomfortable, I told her, no one else admitted the truth until they had no choice). I'm TOO real about mine.

As you all know by now, I usually talk to multiple people at one time however there is always one person that's my "main". Well, his name is Sammii and I'm sooooo confused. One moment he seems interested in me, and the next, he just doesn't. For example, I keeps saying, I wanna meet you so bad and shit, but keeps coming up with excuses. (He lives back in Tampa btw). I know he's busy but...I'm important too lol. And course, he reminds me of ...someone else I used to talk to. Much like that person, Sam is very much a pothead and smokes multiple times a day, everyday. I don't really care about smoking, however, I feel like when you smoke, you're not in your normal state of mind. And if you are always smoking, then you are never in your right state of mind which means I don't really know how you truly feel about me. But guys...he is so fine lol. However, I won't compromise myself for some petty attraction.

There's also the other guys who I'm sure I've mentioned before. I don't recall the nickname I gave him right now, so I'll just be calling him Grande. We've had our fun before lol but I always wanted something more serious with him. Well, we've been flirting all week via Twitter then today I find out he has a boyfriend...umm what? So yall KNOW I had to go check this kid out right? Now, I'm not trying to be conceited, but I look way better than this kid. I can't understand why Grande would be with him over me. (Not that want a relationship with him anymore). I would tell you what his boyfriend looks like, but there's no way for me to do it without being "mean" so I'll keep my plump lips closed.

The Greek God is literally all that I want to be when I'm his age. Well-traveled, intelligent, doing well for himself...he is just DREAMY.

I don't need alcohol to have a good ass time. Sadly, can't say the same for others.

Still feel like I haven't made a true BEST friend at USF. Yet.

I lost 20 pounds in college and I'm reaaaally not trying to gain in back in three weeks. My mom is on her way with a box of fried chicken as we speak. Le sigh,

Sitting here thinking about Diane. She has reached the highest level of best-friendom. I feel like friendship is a constant thing where one person goes out of their way to do things for the other, and vice verse. You do those to prove how much someone means to you and for them to realize that. (OMG my ear is so itchy right now). However, right now I feel that no matter what we will always be friends. She's the only person that I don't stress about concerning our friendship. I trust her and she trusts me. I can't say that for most people.

My mom is SO surprised and pissed that my dad did not speak to me last night at my sister's event. I'm not.

Alex is still killing me with his whiteness, from 250 miles away -___-

Class dismissed.