I’m just trying to find a reason not to go out every evening
I need someone that’ll help me think of someone besides myself
I need someone I leave through the front door with
‘Cause we don’t wanna hide no more
‘Cause you’re not shy no more
Neither one of us wanna play the side no more
As most of you know, I was in the hospital for two weeks in order to have surgery on my infected elbow. Now I just have to walk around with a tube entering my body through my left bicep up into the upper cavity of my heart. Yeaaah.
Anyways, While I was gone, some citizens of the 3500 went a little crazy. No names. No T, No Shade. Things have seemed to get alot better since I've been back, it really just goes to show how much you can affect the people around you and not even know it. I've actually started distancing myself from certain people in the pod. I might say Hi and Bye, but honestly, you probably annoy me and avoiding you is for YOUR own good. Don't ask me about this shit, If the shoes fits, put that motherfucker on.
Tampa guys are attractive, but they have so much less class and sophistication than the guys from back home. It's all about sex. ALL about sex. Now don't get me wrong, I am a very sexual person, and that might be the problem. These niggas see these gyrations and the way this body be movin in the club, and they can't seem to think past the booty. The booty game is skrong.
However I'm soooo much more than that. There's so much more that lies behind these sultry eyes. For once, I'd like to be pursued by someone who's in it for keeps.
I wanna try a white or asian guy. Those are the most foreign to me. I mean, my heart belongs to my latin papis, or them thuuuugs round the way, however, maybe it's time for something new? Let me knoooow.
Anyway, the club on thursday was banginnnn. Of course, a certain thuggy latin boy who shall remain unnamed had to come grab him a handful. He gets mad when I dance with other boys but last time I checked, you only hit me up for sex, (which I don't give him btw).
Of course Soft Serve was there. (side eye). Karissa came with me but I think she was unaware of aaaall of the lesbian eyes on her muahaha. Antywayz, Well I danced with this cute ass, thin boy named Marcus. He might be too fem for me but I hope I see him again. However, I was most interested in this petite latin boy named Matt. I caught him peepin the kid and I had to go say something. He told me I was cute, then we danced. all the niggas was tryna get at him that night. I def wanna see him again. I also seen the crusty nigga who stole my necklace when he came over, and check this...he was WEARING it. Def had to get that back.. Then there's Robin......*smiles to self*
But the NEXT night sucked!!! Basically, I went to the club with Hiram and his ex whom I thought was "just his friend" seeing as that ended in 2011. But they were all over each a few times, so I pretty much looked like a third wheel. I really don' t think Hiram understands that I have feelings for him. Like at all. How could someone so smart, be so dumb?
A certain someone by the name of M****** needs to stop these games and let me knooooow
I'm really ready to move out of the pod. I need my own room (No T, No Shade, Sam) And I really am ready to put myself around people more like myself.
But I never mention everything I dabble in ;)
OH SHIT. I almost forgot to tell y'all what happened two fridays ago. Okay so, Cole was going to come over and we were gonna go clubbing and he was gonna stay over. Bailey and Kitkat were gonna come with us. Well, he came two hours past when he said he would be here at fucking 11. I offered him gas money for taking them with us and I was going to drive his mustang so that he could drink. Well when he got here it took the girls a little bit to go downstairs. As I'm pulling off, he is making a big deal out of the FIVE minutes he had to wait for us to come outside. Long story short, he makes about 5 slick comments within me driving for 60 seconds at which point I was ready to hit him but I kept my cool because I know the girls really wanted to go to the club. But then he acted like he was doing me SUCH a big favor and I ended up just turning around and going back to campus. He is such an asshole, He starts calling another people to make plans AS WERE STILL IN THE CAR. So, when I parked, I very calmly got out of the car and waited for the girls, and tossed his keys into the trash can. Endstory.
Now that I think about it, every time I have any type of connection with a gay guy whether it be friendship or....otherwise, it almost always ends badly. When it comes to a couple, one is jealous of me and intimidated by my presence. When it comes to friends, they either want to be more or THINK I want to be more. And when it comes to relationships, we all know these niggas ain't shit.
Randomly thinks of Jonathan Colon
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