"Bitches lyin' on the kid, I won't leave for that
Intimidated by my aura (ora) where Rita at?"
The biggest issue I need to vent about right now is this whole OTL thing. I didn't get it and I was told that is because it's a leadership-development position and if you're already a leader, well that makes no sense lol. I take it as a compliment and I honestly believe that's true considering the people who got it. Deeks was so right. I'm looking into joining street team for SG or New Student Connections. I really wanna be a PAL more than anything else. More than anything else, I'm upset that my time was completely wasted. I no longer have the opportunity to travel abroad this summer (which was my plan B) so what now?
I know who I am and what I've done. I feel myself constantly having to prove myself to these sorry ass people at this school. Speaking of which, two people that I work with in Hall Council have some type of personal vendetta against me and one even held a meeting in which he basically got two other dummies to try to bully me. Not happening. The kid does what the fuuuuuuuuck he wants and he ain't leaving until he ready. When I showed him how confrontational I can really be, he backed off but naaaah it's too late son. You woke the dungeon dragon up and now this Locomotive will run your ass over!
Antywayz, I'm thinking about leaving hall council because it's too much stress over something I never truly wanted to do in the first place. It's all about personal growth, and I'm receiving nothing but a headache. We had our Harry Poplar event yesterday, which was full of nerds as Vladimir predicted. They were all trying to act so friendly. Ha. Nothing worse than a fake ass bitch. Antywayz, just remember that we are colleagues, not friends. I will make sure you know that.
Trey in Ybor: November 14th-16th
Thursday- 5 people flaked out on me at the last minute. Went to Social by myself. Met up, danced with, and made out with a guy that I honestly was not even that interested in. (I really want his friend). The kid got maaaad compliments all night though.
Friday- Went with the Power Rangers and some other poddies to Czar and Honeypot (by myself). I hate going with large groups because I feel myself wanting to be with everyone yet everyone always splits up. Czar was fucking boring and I didn't wanna club alone (again).
Thursday- Went to Gbar w/ Hiram, Charmaine, and Phil. Hiram is so fun to be around and just a really positive person. However, I think I'm too...(bad?) for him. I feel like I can't be who I truly am because he'll judge me and I don't wanna disappoint him. And he's cute lol. Oh and I saw my major crush there, and he was making out with some other guy. #StoryOfMyLife. I'm pretty sure I died.
I miss Team Amazing :(
I'm thinking about changing my major from ISS to Mass Comm. Idk, I can totally see myself as a Mass Comm major more than anything else.
Best moment of the week: Markus and Big Titty >>>
So, the 30something people I live with in this section of floor are referred to Poddies or Podmates. The dynamic is interesting to say the least haha. There are really four different factions: The Power Rangers, The Size Queens, The Greeks, and....the Extras hahahaha. I'm friends with everyone (mostly) however I typically only hang with the first two. I've always been that way, trying to befriend everyone, which usually leaves me stuck in the middle. I only really feel like I have a true connection with maybe 2 or 3 people as far as trust, loyalty and true friendship goes.
DownLow boys are the worst!!! Stay paranoid as if people really care about who you sleep with. I've learned my lesson.
I am not a human being.
Oh and to someone special....I hope you're reading this.
Umm the conversation is over, you can leave now.
