"All those minds games never mind cause they all lose (bad no)
In the physical sense I mean that
I ain't tryna kiss up, suck up, feed gas
I ain't like them niggas you sucking your teeth at, nope"
I try to be very friendly and humorous, but at the same time very firm and upfront. I'm very open, which tends to make others feel open to me.
You know what? There's alot of fakeness that occurs in this pod. I don't say anything, because if you wanna be fake, then that's YOUR decision, just know that I won't be associated with that bullshit. Its so unusual for me, because I've never been around people so afraid to voice their opinions and be generally upfront.
Now I definitely am one for picking battles. When Markus pulled his little creep shit, I was mad af. I said nothing, knowing who I am and what I'm capable of. But I really mean is this: I didn't go on acting like everything was all dandy. He did it once, I got over it. He did it again, stopped fucking with his ass. So I don't consider him a friend. I don't do anything nor say anything that would give ANYONE the idea that I am still cool with him.
But that can't be said for others in the pod. I just watch and observe. I take note. I question whether I am being talked about as I leave the room...
I just want like 2 or 3 people in the pod that I consider my BEST friends. I don't really have a best friend here yet besides Shaitown on the otherside of the freakin campus -___-. Its hard for me to really talk seriously with the guys but at the same time, I don't know if I reaaaally trust the girls yet.
I'm gonna try to talk to Sam more. I know him, but I feel like I don't know him. Really, he's very hard to read. Us being close is inevitable, but I just haven't even hung out with him outside the pod. That sucks.
Too many creep ass people in this pod. I almost think that some of them are afraid to be up front with me. I'm not trying to garner fear, only respect.
Franky came and chilled today lol...He's sooooo not my type. He actually kinda reminded me of Rafael. Shit was cray. But he was very lanky. It was kinda awkward.
I get really hungry when I'm upset. I just noticed that.
Legit can't wait for Rafael to get here. There is no one on this campus like that nigga. He dope af.
I wish that Joycelyn wasn't the RA. We would be such great friends, she understands things that other people in the pod do not understand. I wanna know what she's really like. She smokescreens alot of her life from us.
Was offered shrooms tonight. I like my brain cells, thanks.
Anyway, I've been getting really close to Katie. Omg I freakin love her. She's just always down for whatever, much like myself. And she has great jaw structure lmao. But I enjoy being invited to do things and go places because I'm not used to that. I used to always make the plans then get upset when people didn't follow through, after agreeing. It's nice to feel like someone actually enjoys my presence. That sounded more serious than I meant it to.
Blah. I need a good time. I need a fresh breath of air.
Some of this week's interesting tweets:
"Its not that I don't like you, I just don't fuck with you. Refuse to associate myself with you. #OhWell"
"Survivor: Pod 3500. I'm trying to vote these bitches off the island..."
"When you start a war, it's important to make sure the majority of of the countries are on your side... ;)"
"When people insert themselves in the conversation..Ima need you to backspace out.."
